Well we have 8 more days until we meet our little man and I suppose we are as ready as we can be;) Moving and having a baby within two months of each other really has really put a lot of pressure to finishing this room quickly. Although everyone keeps telling me he won’t even be in the room for the first few months, it just feels so much better to have it finished!
It has been quite the journey to get to where we are, and I am reminded time and time again how perfect God’s timing is. One thing I haven’t been terribly open about is that we had a really hard time getting pregnant. Infertility can be a really lonely place and it is such a personal issue that it is hard to open up about it. I still have a hard time letting people in about it.
We had a “chemical pregnancy” before we pregnant with our little boy. We were so excited to find out that I was pregnant, however I soon lost that pregnancy and we weren’t sure if we would be able to conceive again. A few months later when I had found out I was pregnant again, I thought for sure I would quickly loose the pregnancy again. I was full of fear really until we had the 18 week ultrasound and were able to see that he was healthy and really alive.
We had more surprises along the way, also learning at my 18 week ultrasound that I had a low lying placenta. A condition called a Placenta Previa, because the placenta is covering my cervix this meant that I would have to have a c-section. The doctors kept telling us there was a chance my placenta could move and we wouldn’t have an issue, but mine was stubborn and continued to remain right on top of my cervix. That brings us to the present! Due to many risks if I go into labor on my own, I am delivering at 36 weeks.
We are so excited to meet our little fella and really his timing couldn’t be more perfect. As I reflect on our time of waiting, I realize what a wonderful time it was for Tanner and I to continue to grow together as a couple. It was also a great time for me to grow and to pursue passions that I may have missed if I didn’t have the extra time. Looking back it is easy to see God was leading the way, in the moment it wasn’t always as easy;) So for those of you in the wait, know that you are not alone.